Moving forward...

So most people will probably immediately realize that there is a huge chunk of postings missing from this blog. I went through a period of time after Aiden was born where it took everything I had to make it through each and everyday. I had severe postpartum depression and was medicated and had to see a psych. We were facing a military deployment and me possibly losing my job over the medications I had to take. It was an extremely difficult time. I didn't realize until just now when I was going through and hiding those posts how much I have really improved since then. I still have hard days but the difference in my coping skills is just amazing and it's pretty exciting to understand.

I struggled with the decision of whether to hide the posts or not. It was one of the hardest times in my life and one that I would prefer to forget, but I learned a lot from it and grew immensely through the process. So as a compromise, I kept the posts to read over later and remember what I've been through to get to the point I'm at, but I made them private so that it is easier to focus on the wonderful things in my life like Aiden and soon to be baby #2.

That's right! We are officially in baby #2 mode!! We are so excited!!

But before I get into that, I need to go into the fact that Aiden has surgery in the morning. I'm so anxious about it. Bilateral Inguinal Hernia. It's about an hour to two hour procedure. Lots of risks involved because of the area but they assured us that they are great at this particular surgery and don't plan on damaging our little boys goods at all. Other than not getting to eat for 8 hours straight, I know it’s going to be harder on me than it will be on him. The not eating for 8 hours part is going to make him miserable!!! But we’ll make it through. We always do! Aiden has taught me that. Aiden has already taught me many things in his 4 months of life and I couldn’t be more grateful for him!

And now on with the awesomely exciting news!! We are officially TTC again!! (trying to conceive). I stopped taking my b/c on the 7th and now we start the waiting game again. After

having had to try for Aiden for 4 months, we are very familiar with this game, but much more patient this time around. We learned through Aiden that however long it takes is completely worth it in the end (though I may need to be reminded of that a couple months from now if it takes a little while again).

We are so excited to be able to keep building our family and to bring another life and more love into our worlds!

It’s crazy that we are doing this during our year of debt dieting as another baby will surely have an adverse effect on the whole saving money thing, but we are already on such a great path with the debt and we are way too excited to build our family to put it off for anything!

Now if we could only get moved up to Canada within the next 9 months or so to get us a year of paid maternity leave!!! (It’s an actual possibility…the whole moving to Canada thing.)